Thursday, October 12, 2006

mmm blueberry muffin.

it's a cold day. wind is blowing and there have been snow flurries all day for the second day in a row. I am currently wondering, as I sit with my nice hot chai latte and having just finished THE most delicious bluberry muffin, how it is that Shannon will survive the winter here. It can take me awhile to get used to the cold every year. The weather has been ultra crazy with 80 degree weather a couple weeks ago and now it's been about 30-something (Fahrenheit mind you) for the past two days! eek! I however love breaking out all my hand knit scarves and hats that i have made or have been given to me. And I LOVE my vest :-) So warm and so old (it was dad's)

Today I had the day off from the deli, even though I almost got called in again, but if I worked more than 3 hours i'd be over in hours for the week and that won't be good. Plus... I just want to relax after picking up two extra hours in my shift last night (I closed!) and having plans with my mom this afternoon and with my sister and Natalie later tonight. Even though I had work off today I went in for a bit of orientation/training at my new job with Community Involvement Programs and working with their adult foster care houses. It was A LOT to take in but hopefully I'll figure it out. I don' t need to worry too much. The residents are all pretty well behaved and easy to get along with but I still am freaking out a bit. I'm going in next week though so that I can do a shift with someone and kind of shadow them. Whew! that will make things a little easier...hopefully. Seeing someone do the work will probably be easier to grasp than just having it all explained to me although I like having both. In other work news... Natalie finally got a call from Mayo and now she has to move down to Rochester and get ready to start work by the 30th! eek! I hope this doesn't ruin our halloween plans.

on anothernote. I decided to splurge a whole lot of money at the music store the other day. about $62 worth of merchandise. Four cds and a dvd. But I'm loving my purchases. I recommend them all: Ryan Adams, Tapes 'N Tapes, The Last Kiss soundtrack, and The Clash (London Calling). Oh plus the movie Swing kids. Fun things...they have kept me entertained the past couple of days. SO has reading. Just finished The Princess Bride, then watched the movie again. I love that story so much.

i have another post I've been working on but i am scared to read it over and find that it makes no sense, but I promise some sort of meaningful post sooner or later. But now I'm going to go enjoy by chai then go shopping with mom.

Friday, October 06, 2006

perfection and politicians

so this post has been sitting around for awhile and i never got around to posting it so I finally decided to put it up since it had been awhile since my last post and with the upcoming elections here in the states. Hopefully it still makes sense...

let's face it. no one is perfect. i can't stand that word really. I don't think anything or anyone is ever perfect. These thoughts come about in my head ALL the time. Every once in awhile anyway.

Perfection in humans. I don't think it exists. We are SO completely flawed in many ways. There's always gotta be a little flaw in everyone. This thought has plagued me since my childhood. People may say that God or Jesus were perfect... Jesus was human. I believe he was flawed. Even though he was supposed to be an example, i guess, of perfection...well at least of doing the right thing, I still maintain that he must have had some sort of flaw...he was human after all. Anyway...humans aren't perfect. We fuck up ALL the time. Things happen to our bodies and minds that make us do what others may think are wrong. bad or stupid. And then of course they get shunned. yelled at etc etc...

Where am i going with this? Well i've begun to apply all this random thinking about perfection that I have to the elections this year. Yes elections... state stuff not presidential. Congress, and governors etc... I have an interest in politics. Have for awhile. It's why I spent so many years doing the Youth in Government program in high school learning about government and voting and all of that. Anyway that's a little different from the real stuff. (my mind is really choppy... i'm not sure most of this is making sense)but I've tried to make sure that I vote in the elections, to do my part and so on... But I usually find myself not wanting to because of political ad campaigns.

First of all they are mostly VERY cheesy and LAME. Needless to say.. BAD ACTING.
what I really can't stand about them though is when the candidates go after eachother and bring up as much dirt as they can about their opponent(s). Or how bad or stupid they try to make the other guy seem. So when i see these ads I begin thinking,... "yeah ok. she/he didn't do so well with that. They broke a promise, but is this guy who's running the ad against the other guy going to keep ALL (and i mean ALL) of his/their promises?!" DOUBT IT. But I get it. They're not perfect. No one is. It's sad when people break promises or do something disgusting/wrong whatever...It's sad/disgusting to hear about this senator or whatever he was/is that did bad things with kids (something about a page scandal, id on't remember I'll have to look it up. Hayes was maybe his name? I dunno) clearly he's not 'perfect'. he screwed up. It must be hard to be the people who know him, or thought they knew him pretty well. What they have to say to the media and so forth. Not that I'm defending this guy, he's got what looks like a serious problem in more ways than one... Anyway...shit where was I? Oh yeah.. I hate these political ads. that was kind of the main point I was trying to get at. I hate them. i wish Politicians would think about what the hell they are doing. I'm beginning to wonder if they are trying to get people NOT to vote, rather than to actually vote. They need to step back for a while and look at what crap they are putting in their ads about their opponents shortcomings and reflect on if they think they will do everything they have said they would do and will do it well. Overall they need to step back and think about how they're making fun of their opponent for not being perfect in many ways and think about whether or not they are perfect. Which in truth they are not. No one is. This all brings me back to my previous post about the license plate saying...The one about Jesus being perfect and walking on water. I don't think walking on water makes you perfect, but damn is it one hell of a talent! Anyway if this has made any sense at all my point is that no one is perfect. I can't really believe that anyone is. I'm a believer in imperfection i guess. That people are flawed, that there really isn't a 'normal' and that most people and are abnormal. Things happen for whatever reason, people do stupid things but taking the time to understand and think about it is something completely different.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

life lately, books, baseball and the color pink

life lately. hmmmm let's see.
work has been good and with the possibility of another job things are looking up.
I finally found some Cat Empire tickets for cheap. Why they were so expensive on one site and not another I have no idea. Things are looking up. As long as I don't have to work that night.

I'm reliving my childhood a little bit by reading The Princess Bride by William Goldman. It's so much better the second or third time around when I'm actually paying attention to it unlike when I was younger. Truly one of my most favorite books/movies/stories.

I've realized that I have quite a hate for The Yankees and for pink. The Yankees are just... meh. I'm not a fan. They ruin baseball. The Twins. Oh i love them. Too bad they have lost their first two games in the playoffs. I'm now too nervous to watch the games! or even listen. I am sad. I wish they were doing better. they are soo good and so fun!

Oh and the Pink thing. Ummm. I am not a fan in the first place I am really not a fan when it comes to pink hats for baseball. I can't stand those girls at Twins games that wear pink Twins apparel. :-P Bleh. The twins colors are blue, red and white! I have a thing against girly girls at baseball in the first place. Those girls who are decked out at a ballpark is just beyond me

Back to work... it's getting better and better. I love that I know my co-workers better and that we have things to talk about. I still feel like i'm an awkward person though. But I find myself checking the schedule all the time to see who will be working so I know whether I'll have someone to talk to or not.

I'm really looking forward to Halloween this year. I get to play frisbee again with a team at the Halloween tourney in Winona, MN. YAY! and Rob is having a party the night before I go down to the frisbee tourney. I'm excited to see what we dress as for the tournament. I already know what I will be for the party at Rob's. Last saturday we got to talking about costumes. A few of us have gotten on a Kevin Smith kick. Rob and Derek will be Jay and Silent Bob. So Nat and I decided to go for characters from Dogma. The Buddy Christ (me) and God a la Alanis Morisette (nat). This should be fun :-)

Can't think of much else. Will see what I get up to during the next two days that I have off. I plan for a lot of relaxing. :-)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

ALS

so i thought this was really cool...
My buddy Will whom I met while in Adelaide, who is also a fellow frisbee player, luther alumni and Twin Cities resident, set up this site for ALS (Lou Gehrigs Disease) His dad has the disease. This weekend there is a walk to raise money for ALS. I have the link to Will's site. ALthough most of you who read this are from out of town...like oh you know Australia, and it might not work for you to make a donation I recommend you check out the site and the links on the page. It's pretty interesting.
http://web.alsa.org/site/TR?px=1274089&pg=personal&fr_id=1600&s_tafId=3001

HOpefully that link works. But yeah...check it out if you feel. Thanks for your time.

Friday, September 22, 2006

pet peeves of the road.

* correction from last time... it might be about 4-5 of my friends who have been shat on by guys lately. (Trace, we need to get together sometime soon. I hope you are well. Oh and you should visit me at work sometime...;-) )

well enough of the angry boy talk...

how about angry driving talk? ha.
lately i have not really enjoyed driving, although I do find it pleasurable at times, but mostly only when there are not other people around and I can just cruise down the open road for awhile and take it all in. :-) One of my happier driving experiences was when Leah and I left Luther after NordicFest and just cruised on out of Decorah with the warm summer air and bright summer sun flowing in through the windows as we stuck our hands out into the open air and listened to the vocal stylings of Jack Johnson...

Driving int he city is a whole different story. I have gotten better at it and I find myself more aggressive which pleases me, that I have learned to drive better in the city and the suburbs but I still can't stand more than half of the other people on the road. It's been raining lately and people tend to forget how to drive when that starts up. I can't stand people going under the speed limit. That is quite annoying. It's right under my biggest pet peeve while driving. People who don't use their signals! why do you think they put the damn things in your car?! Along with people going under the speed limit ... I can't stand those who go above the speed limit and find it their right to ride my ass as I am going the speed limit or even above! jerks. argh... I don't even know how to really explain my frustration in words, but if you've ever ridden in a car with me driving you'd probably understand.

If you think about it...driving is quite dangerous. Really. It's a bunch of humans, who are not perfect beings, who error all the time, operating a big (however many tons) metal vehicle. I think most people take it for granted every day. But I reckon I should start thinking about it more and being thankful that I am not dead from driving around a bunch of idiots. Of course I make my mistakes too. Like today when I probably could have gotten hit by another car while I pulled out in front of it. My claim though... the jack ass was driving a grayish car on a very gray and rainy day without his headlights on...it's kind of hard to see that kind of thing. Anyway... Not that it needs to be thought about constantly but it is something to think about the next time you get in a car and start driving. I do not trust people on the road. I liek people. I took four years of psychology to get a degree becuase I find people interesting but I like them the least, it seems, while they are on the road. I'm always wondering what is going through their minds while I yell at them from behind my steering wheel. At least I don't creat road rage. ..

Monday, September 18, 2006

not common sense

i haven't had much to say lately, nothing interesting enough to get a comment...but i will say this...well these few things that have popped into my head:

I am so ready to kick a guy in the balls. I hope no nice ones get caught in my war path but I am about ready to do it. a few of my closest friends have been shit on by boys over the last few months. yes boys. I will call them that.They are not men in my mind. I don't know. A lot of shit goes down in many relationships, and I can see how one forgives someone. but damnit... i'm just kind of pissed with what has been going on lately. One of those boys I knew fairly well. And next time I see him I don't know if I should kick him in the balls, punch him in the face or give him a hug. Augh!

and another thing totally unrelated...

i can't stand the bad rep that psychology, psychologists, therapists, psychiatrists etc. get from mostly the media. Damn you tv and movies! Psychologists and psychiatrists in this form seem to be portrated very much in the manner of being a bad guy or insane. Theydo not get credit in the movies or in real life for helping people or 'saving lives'. It's not a 'real' science to most people. It's not 'real' help, or medicine to some people. AUGH! and may i say that it's common sense! If someone who has never ever studied psychology can tell me the treatments for manic depression or how many types of schizophrenia there are and what their differences are, or the different treatments or theories of different mental illnesses, or at least ONE psychologist (other than Freud) and what their contribution to psychology was ... then it's common sense. I'm so sick of people looking at me funnywhen I tell them that I have a psych degree. Ah.. screw them. I want to help people in one of the most difficult ways possible! The mind is a terribly hard thing to explain and deal with and everyone has GOT to know that! so bullshit it's common sense! (heh...and that whole 'common sense' thing came from my friend at work who is studying art. psh.. I wouldn't even call art 'common sense'..i'm not that mean) so yeah. Too bad it's not all common sense and not everything can be cured by exercise and vitamins (tom fucking cruise - thank goodness he finally apologized to Brooke Shields. Maybe he does have a good bone in his body). The mind is a very difficult thing to understand and it's Not common sense!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

a hairnet.

well lets see what's been going on...oh plenty but I'm sure I'll forget half of it.

Saw the girls on Saturday and it was fantastic! I spent most of the afternoon with Kayla shopping in which I ended up buying my first real purchase of make-up and then I had some amazing tea and then found Tim Tams (which were NOT labeled as Tim Tams..just as Arnott's chocolate biscuits) and some Twirl and Flake. YUm! I am in heaven now...Now that I can get Tim Tams and Cooper's in Minneapolis! YAY! It's great. Dinner and going out with Kayla, Maris and Kris was great but I got really freaked out while driving. I had had a few drinks before going to pick up Kris from the airport. So I was a little nervous when I had loud noises in the car and then there was a detour to and from the airport. Once in uptown , after taking probably THE longest way to get there we went to WIlliams and had a good time. Tried a couple of other pubs but weren't really feeling it. Came home and had a bit of ham salad then hit the sack. According to Krista I snore :-( For some reason I got offended by this. :-P We went to breakfast the next morning with Krista's mom Luann and sister Lindsey. It was great. So nice to see them again!

Sunday I had to work so it was probably good that I didn't drink heaps on saturday night. The day went by pretty fast. Work was SO busy! :-P bleh! And that's about all that happened that day. It was also Natalie's birthday and we had planned to go to the Gay 90s but Nat was not feeling well. So we plan for the pub sometime this week to celebrate :-) I ended up just getting into my warm bed and watching a movie instead of all the 9/11 tv specials that were on. I just didn't think I could deal with all of that. So yeah, I watched Out Cold instead. I think I am just hoping for autumn and winter soon :-)I've enjoyed the cooler weather lately, but it is supposed to get warm again soon.

So back to the 9/11 stuff. Well that was Sunday for those of you who may have lost track of the days, and well I can't say that I have much to say on the topic. I didn't watch many things about it or talk about it all that much. I remember that day it happened and watching so much tv that night after school about what was going on in NY and it was SO devistating. It was too much to watch at once.

Another thing about work.. Met a new person...Sharon. She's great. I like her. We got to talking and she was so supportive when we talked about me getting a full time job that relates to my degree. Overall..she was nice. I liked her and look forward to working with her again.

Today I finally found a freaking hairnet so I wouldn't have to wear the hat anymore at work which makes my forehead itch. I got it just before work and put it on in the car. I got to work and was working away only to have my manager tell me it looked like i had lost it. He asked first if I had a hat, which of course I answered with 'yes. but i just got a hairnet today' Then he proceeds to tell me that he thinks I've lost it. I think he was kind of nervous about this. So I finish up with a customer or two and run around the corner to the bathroom to check. I still had the hairnet. THe thing is that the hairnet was made to be pretty much invisible. hopefully this is ok with my boss...I'll have to show him it to reassure him that I did not lose it.

um...besides all of that not much else going on. I haven't seen my parents much lately because of work. the gas prices are going down. I got paid last friday..YAY! but spent a lot of it already on random things. and that's about all i've got for now. i think. i don't know. i'm rambling...as usual.

Friday, September 08, 2006

'chz'

yesterday i had a day off.
I didn't know what to do with myself. I sat around most of the day with mom and just hung out.I enjoy watching The View when I can. I must say that the addition of Rosie O'Donnell to the View is pretty good. I like her. She kind of talks a lot but she's funny.

Work today was pretty good. Had an 11-7 shift which went reasonably fast. I met a new kid today who was pretty cool. Not gonna lie, to me, he was kind of weird, but i think i know who he'll get a long with. Anyway... it's interesting to watch someone new come in since I was new about two weeks ago. I like the feeling of knowing where everything is and knowing how to slice meats and stuff. I remember one of the girls that i usually work with telling me how she got sick of doing salads and enjoys doing Hot Foods more. I have to say that I think I'm getting there already. I'm kind of sick of salads, and i feel cool that i can do meats and cheese pretty well now. Still a few things I don't know but it's getting much easier ...but hot foods are getting more interesting. I think next week I'm schedule one day to do cheese. I am not sure if that means that I am to work across they way at the cheese place or what. at least I think that 'chz' means i am working with the cheese people. who knows.

Today, again, was pretty good and pretty interesting. Like the lady who wanted 16 pounds of roast beef! what?! Poor Jake had to SLICE 16lbs for this lady and then that wasn't enough, she actually asked for three pounds more of roast beef, totaling the amount to 19 pounds! hahaha. Jake made it through, he said he had worse before, but yeah... slicing 19 lbs of roast beef! :-P crazy! I also scared the shit out of Jake later while he was cleaning a slicer. It was time for me to go and I had just finished with my last customer who needed a lot of stuff, and so I go to tell Jake to help the next people who want sliced meat and cheese and just as I say "Jake" he gets startled and jumps. :-) I didn't realize you could get so intense about cleaning a slicer. lol. He said that he was just very relaxed, kind of in his own world so when i tried talking to him it startled him.

so yeah. that's all really. I am hanging with Davina at the coffee shop. Yay. So happy to have coffee and a friend! :-) I love these nights and days where I hang with D. She's great. I miss her. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow and hanging out with Kayla, Kris and Maris. It should be great! First I have to pick up my paycheck cuz stupid head here forgot to! :-P Yeah I'm a genius. Ok that's all i have to ramble about today.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

my yarn bag is full and happy...

...and so am I. Well happy anyway.
Mom bought me three new bundles of yarn and I am happy. I now have enough to make actual things. i already started a scarf for mom and a hat for Shannon (he'll need it. it gets cold around here)

other exciting news. work is going well.
Krista will be here for a very short time on Saturday night!
I get to hang out with kayla pretty much all day on Saturday! (and all night)
I get to go for coffee with Davina on Friday night!
I think i get paid tomorrow!
Natalie's birthday is on the 10th and we're planning on going to the Gay90s
for her birthday!
Got a random phone call from Tracy today! We haven't talked in ages! Hope you feel better soon though Trace!
And i really think that's all I've got for now. I can't think of much else to talk about.
Some things good. Some things weird.

overall... good.
I have yarn now. I get to make things! :-) YAY.

Saturday, September 02, 2006

milk or beer?

my dad posed a very real and very serious question/scenario last night at the dinner table.

now I'm sure I know what you all may be thinking... that the question would be about what am I going to do with my life or something... but let's be serious... my dad isn't that serious. He's happy I have a job and he supports me in my search for a job that will pay me crap because I want to help people and which will barely help me pay off my college loans. :-)

knowing my love for both milk and beer, the question/scenario my dad posed last night was this:

if you had milk and beer sitting on the table and both were about to fall off the table, which would you save?!

oh goodness I thought. Well i had to think about it... i came up with this: I would save the beer because it was in a glass bottle, while the milk is in a plastic carton. Thus there would be less mess and then both would be safe and in good condition. I thought I had it.

Well then Dad proceeds to bring up what if you had a glass of beer and a glass of milk...then which would you save?! OMG I didn't know what to say... I love both Milk and Beer. I mean... I've been drinking Milk longer, so was I to go with my long time friend that keeps me healthly and builds strong bones...or do I go with my new found friend of only a few years that has such a distinct taste and if larger amounts are drunk i feel as though I can do anything?
Let's be a little serious here...we could have gotten into it even deeper. If it were Skim Milk and a Cooper's Pale Ale I would be at complete odds...well almost. I don't know if I ever decided while at the dinner table. So I brought it up to my friends last night as we were out at this new pub in Downtown Minneapolis...

The ever-so-wise Rob made a good point. "You'd save the beer. Milk costs less..." He might have said something else but I was probably into my fourth Captain and Coke and the money point that he made was probably the one that hit my ears with a ding because I have no money (very little in fact that I don't think I even paid for any of my drinks last night. Yay for new bars that give away heaps of free drink passes! score!)
So yeah... save the beer... it costs more! Especially the Coopers. I mean damn.. I finally found it in Minneapolis and I am not letting that go. Plus I work in a freaking supermarket, where I get a discount so I could buy 'mucho leche' for a very good price. Good beer is not cheap. Now see if it was shitty beer like bud light or some shit like that I'd let the beer go and save the milk. That's quite simple...and that's a whole 'nother story ... if the beer cost less than milk I'd definitel save the milk. :-)

Yep. That's what I've been thinking about. I'm going to now go enjoy my saturday which has started well. No hangover from a beer, five captain and cokes, plus a shot. I got up at a decent enough time to watch Phil of the Future and The Batman. And now will relax with Animaniacs and then get my hair cut since I haven't cut it in ages. w00t! yeah for having saturday off from work! :-)

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

i like to wonder.

(just more of what I have been up to...)
i always think of good titles and things to write about while I'm at work, or not at the computer and then I forget them by the time I sit down to write...Then I'll remember them later. Anyway..hopefully this isn't too boring.

I miss school. Luther. Decorah. Part of me really wishes I was heading down there and going back to class and learning more, being around my friends again, hanging out in the coffee shop on campus or drinking beers down at T-Bock's (it's wednesday night... that's $3 pitcher night :-) ) sigh... But another part of me is really ready to start something new. I think I wouldn't miss Luther as much if I had a real job and wasn't living at home. Things are moving slowly with the job search, but it will happen. I've decided to put the job search on hold a bit and search for volunteer and internship possibilities which may help me land a 'real' job later. I'm still baffled as to why one place I applied to volunteer at never got back to me. I suppose I can email them and send in another application. I've started to make a list of places I applied to and am hoping that they will have volunteer or internship opportunities. Since I have the Byerly's deli job at the moment I have the time to actually do some volunteer or internship work. It would also be a plus to have that going on since I can get really bored during the day before I go to work at the deli. And the deli i think would be pretty flexible about my hours. Here's hoping someone will want me to volunteer for them :-)

speaking of work (which is all I ever blog about now) ...it's getting better. I'm starting to get the hang of things a little more, and my coworkers are being very helpful. The customers seem to like me just fine too. I only had to work for four hours tonight and not until four this afternoon. It was quite amazing how zoned out I could still be at 4pm. :-P Happily the hours went by very quickly. I am also enjoying my coworkers more. I'm getting along with them better. I think I'm getting into the 'loop' a little bit more, which I like because that means there are more people to talk to and joke around with. The customers are constantly entertaining, and both them and my coworkers keep me wondering ;-) I like to wonder. I'm a psych person... so people may think I analyze, but I like to consider it 'wondering' or 'thinking' or 'considering'. :-) Anyway...i'm constantly learning new things every day about how things run, and how people function. My favorite customer today was the lady who wanted to know what would keep at a bbq. I feel like she had never been to one and I didn't know what to tell her. :-P Ooh... and one last thing about work.. I got to clean the cheese slicer yesterday! w00t! let me tell you what excitement that was! haha. It's kind of hard ...especially doing it for the first time and being terrified of cutting yourself while trying to get all the crusted-on cheese off of the blade! eek! No worries i still have ten fingers and all of my limbs.

besides work and missing school... nothing else is going on. I haven't seen anyone in a long time and am hopefully going to remedy that soon. I haven't seen Natalie really in two weeks! :-( And it's been ages since I've even chatted to some friends. Hopefully I will see people this weekend and next. I like friends. I miss them. I hope more come to visit soon! :-)

that is all.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

crosswords

I love having Sundays off of work. I hope a get a lot more! After working 25 hours in four days i was happy to have a break. I spent the morning racking my brain for answers to the sunday paper's crossword puzzle. Shit it can be hard. It's a fun activity to do with my dad though :-P I spent most of last night trying to figure out the rest of Saturday's crossword...i was really mad at it and at the internet last night, and then I started thinking about work and got mad about work. Weird huh? Why was I mad at work? Well... I like it I really do, the people are nice and so are most of the customers, but sometimes i feel like my coworkers, the ones around my age, just don't seemt to enthused by me being there. The two people I have liked the most so far are older women. They're way cool. One has similar interests as me...well she used to (maybe still does) work with Chemically dependent people. And then there's Sue (her name tag reads 'Suzie Q.). She's sassy and funny. I like it. She asks me about life and what I'm doing. I like her. Everyone else is nice too, don't get me wrong ( Barb the cheese lady always smiles and says hello to me..:-) )but yeah the kids around my age I think are mostly high schoolers, or at least younger than me to an extent. I don't know I think I'm a little socially awkward at first anyway, and well they've all been working at the deli longer than me so clearly they know eachother better. I think maybe we're all just socially awkward at work. I dunno, at least Jacob introduced himself to me yesterday, he was missing his name tag, so that was good to at least know his name so I didn't have to call him 'hey you' if needed. Anyway I got this silly idea last night that the rest of the younger kids don't like me. It's probably really ridiculous, but I don't know...they're not that friendly and well i feel like a complete idiot when I ask them questions because they already know most of the stuff. Meh. That's all i've got about work (which seems to be the only thing that I write about lately...)

Job searching hasn't gone that well lately. I got depressed yesterday while I was trying to get stuff together. I apparently had other things on my mind. I'm trying to write another cover letter for a different job with an organization that I interviewed with earlier. I don't want to come off as a flake and turn in the same cover letter or one that is too similar. Sigh...such is life. I just feel bad when I don't change my cover letter much. I realized that I should also put the deli clerk position on my resume now too. sigh... so much to do. :-P

I was somewhat productive today...even if it didn't have to do with writing cover letters and resumes... I returned a gift (bed sheets...too flowery and bright!) Then almost bought more pants for work...but didn't and instead bought a nice shirt, the Gnarls Barkley cd, and the Aristocrats dvd. Good purchases I think. Then I brought some school books to the second hand book shop to try to get some money for them. I got a whopping $5. I know I paid way more for those bastards... oh well... the $5 got me some coffee at the shop next door which is where I am currently writing from. Sadly I finally gave in and am paying money to use the internet for two hours. I can no longer pick up the signal from Panera next door. Damnit!
Not much else has been going on. I haven't hung out with anyone lately. Have been spending most days and nights to myself since Shannon left. Everyone I think is getting ready for school again and what not. I dunno. I enjoyed working on the crossword and just chilling watching a movie last night which i am sure is what I will do tonight too. I don't work until 4 tomorrow, not that that really means anything... I guess I get to sleep in again. nice.

Friday, August 25, 2006

salads and slicers

Yesterday was day two at work and things went fine. I actually used the meat and cheese slicer. One of the meat slicers acutally broke while I was trying to use it.:-P It's hard to get exactly a pound, or half a pound... i reckon this will take practice.oh well. The guy who is in charge of the deli was there during my shift, he's also the guy who hired me, and it made me nervous... i didn't want to screw up horribly. I feel like he is the guy you aspire to be behind the deli. He knows everything about the food, how everything works and he's really friendly. I doubt I'll ever get to that point but it's nice to know that he likes his job and takes it seriously.

Big storms came through Minnesota yesterday. THere was HUGE hail in different parts of the state and even tornadoes! None of th at hit the cities though which i'm thankful for, but i can only imagine the storm damage. Well I actually got a bit of a description of it while I was at work. It was getting down to the last hour or so and this man who works for Home Depot is one of the guys that goes out to asses storm damage. YIKES! He just kept talking and talking about what the weather had been like and what he could look forward to for the next month... i guess he'll be pretty damn busy. He was a nice fellow and although I couldn't hear half of what he said, i just smiled and nodded and tried to serve him his food without dropping it. There are many interesting characters that come into the store. I have enjoyed the few that have stopped to talk so far.

Well hopefully soon something more interesting will happen in my life other than scooping up salads and slicing meat. But let's face it the most interesting part of my summer is gone. Amber came and went and so did Shannon. I have no one to entertain or be entertained by constantly while at home.

the only other thing that I can think of that's been on my mind every once in awhile is the idea of a movie critc. I want to know how they got the job to criticise movies and peoples' work when they may have never even been in a movie, or been involved in making a film... I dunno... How did they get that job?!
yeah that's all. I'm going to go watch The View now.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Coopers, Shannon and work.

I wrote a few days ago to update but clearly it did not make it on here. The basis of that post was "OMG! I found Coopers in Minneapolis; My life is complete" -- The end. :-)

Well besides finding Coopers, Shannon left today and that made me sad. Not overly sad but a bit at least! It was so nice to have him visit! I went to my first day of work at the deli and it went just fine, but it was eight hours of standing on my feet. I did drop a cold salad in the morning that went over the counter and luckily did not hit the lady who had asked for it. Oh yeah I get to wear a silly hat. It's not too bad, but still kind of silly. It doesn't really stay in one place. I was terrified to even try the slicer today. I got the low down on everything mostly, but it would have been really nice to have one person go through everything with me...which didn't happen but everyong was pretty nice in helping me out when I had questions. I'm sure I screwed up a few times but no customers really complained and I got a good hold on doing the salads since it's pretty much all I did today. But good ness! so many salads and different meats and chesses! It's crazy! whew!

Dad picked me up from work and as I was leaving I was thinking that I'd get to go home to see Shannon. Oh wait, ( I reminded myself) I took him to the airport at an ungodly hour this morning :-( Sigh.. It was nice to have an Aussie around and be reminded of the fun times in Adelaide and to reconnect. I look forward to January when Shannon says he will be passing through again. Until then I guess the Coopers will have to console me, and so far it is doing its job well. Nothing like some Coopers after an eight hour shift at the deli... ahhh... relaxing.

I can't say there is too much more going on. Most of you read Shannon's blog now so you'll get an update from him about what we did the past couple days. I think a lot of it was drinking alcohol and watching movies. We went to the sculpture garden in the city on a very nice evening and went to the Mall of America the other day, but the last few days were pretty chill. Oh yeah we met Sunil's friend Jen. She was very nice. Um but we were mostly bums for the past few days before Shannon left. I thought of a billion things we could do though after he left. We never got around to the biscuits and gravy and I didn't show him any other part of Minnesota ( up North is beautiful) plus there's great historic stuff around , but whatever I think he's fine with it all.

And i think that's it. My feet hurt and I'm too tired to think. Lucky that I work at 2 pm tomorrow. Yay for sleeping in!
and that's all i've got for now.

Monday, August 21, 2006

it's not that different

well no one has bugged me to update the past few weeks. But while Shannon was talking to Shannon on skype, schwarz mentioned I hadn't updated in awhile. I must say that I am quite flattered ( i think is the word i am looking for) that schwarz still reads my blog.

Anyway, most of you read Mason's blog probably and have already read up on his adventures here in the U.S. So I feel as though it's kind of ridiculous to re-write what he has already written since he's been here in Minneapolis. But i will share the highlights that I think are quite fun.

I think the funniest thing since shannon has been here was his reactions to the products in the supermarket and his excitement and utter confusion, and wonder at the idea of cheese in a can. :-) 'Easy Cheese' as it is called or as my siblings and I called it when we were litte "squeezy cheese", is ... well cheese in a can. Shannon was quite baffled by this idea wondering if it came out all foamy like whip cream does from a can. It's hard to explain the consistency of Easy Cheese. It's not foamy like whipped cream. It's kind of slimey in a way... ummmm like...well it's not a liquid , and it's not like ketchup (tomato sauce for u aussies ;-) ) but it's not very solid either like real cheese. It's somewhere in between. Anyway we got some cheese in a can and brought it home for Shannon to taste. As some of you might know it was quite a spectacle. Pictures were taken. My family sat around to watch... i'm sure the dog was even excited. I think he liked it, but really it's quite salty and the crackers we topped were pretty salty too. Besides his reaction to the Easy Cheese, while in the supermarket he 'oooed and awwwwed' at the crazy things we have here that he had not see over in Australia. Needless to say it was all quite entertaining.

Well besides that excitement i've tried to be a good host and have showed shannon some of the sites around here. Went to the art museum the other day, have had dinners with my family, and got him heaps drunk at my friend Rob's. I have never seen Shannon that drunk before so it was a new experience for me. I pressured him to drink water over and over again and then finally we both passed out. Back to the museum bit though.. i have to say that I am just crazily impressed by art. I don't know how people think of these things, and how much patience they must have to create these beautiful works of art. Some I just don't understand. And overall i just cant help but look at them forever...paintings from hundreds of years ago still in good condition and done SO well. I really enjoy the ones that have to do with religion and bible stories. Particularily with Jesus. There are quite a few versions of stories about Jesus and it's really interesting to see how different artists portray them. I don't know...they're just REALLY interesting to me. I'm also quite amazed by marble sculpture! How did they do it! especially from ancient Greece and Rome?! it's so beautiful! I got to see what I hope is an original of 'Veiled Lady' ( i think it's lady, it might be woman, but whatever you get the idea). I have seen this sculpture, well at least a replica of it in the newest version of Pride and Prejudice and just love it. It was so awesome to see it up close and personal, well at least the head of the veiled lady. It's just... wow... how they make it look like someone is veiled in marble sculpture is beyond me and I LOVE it! I like wondering and just staring at art for long periods of time :-)

Something that was pretty funny this week was when we went to see 'Snakes on a Plane'. So funny by the way. Shannon, Natalie and I met up with my good friend Will and a group of his friends for the midnight showing. Will is in love with Shannon. Hahaha. ok so NOT really but they met on Tuesday night after my frisbee game at the bar. Will was over in Adelaide studying post grad stuff while I was there. We are frisbee buddies. I *heart* him. He is good people. Anyway... So Will LOVES Australia, of course, he dislikes very much Baseball, but loves cricket. Will proceeded to talk to Shannon about cricket and his love for the game. Because of this he decided he was in love with Shannon :-) which he told us a few nights later while we were at the movie. Well I thought it was funny anway. I laughed.

Tomorrow Shannon and I head to the Mall of America to have lunch with one of his mum's friends I think. I actually have somewhat of a shopping agenda for the mall (one store) and so it should be pretty entertaining. We have also just recently learned that one of the liquor stores around here has Cooper's! O M G! :-) Mandy who i went to school with at Luther also visited Adelaide (a year before me) and loves the Coopers! She apparently found some at this liquor store near her new place in Minneapolis! I have been to this liquor store and have not seen it... maybe I have not searched hard enough.So we have high hopes in finding Coopers tomorrow afternoon. I hope our journey will turn out successful!

i reckon that's all I have for now. Not too interesting. oh yeah... I had a birthday last week. Last Saturday. Drank beer friday, chilled with Shannon and the fam on my birthday and it was great. i got good stuff from friends and family. It was a lovely birthday. 22 does not feel that much different that 21... A lot of my friends will actually be turning 23 soon. HAHA oldies! oh well. I like being young.

oh and I had orientation this weekend for my new job. w00t! now I have to call in and schedule hours. Hmmm a task i should complete tomorrow. This also means that I need to buy new clothes and shoes to wear to work :-P bleh. Am still searching for that full time job, and h opefully it will come soon enough. I'm really looking forward to it someday! I'm rambling too much...check shannon's blog for a better update on what we've been up to. www.cheesebandits.net/things
that is all.
p.s. where have you all been?! where's the love?! ;-)

Monday, August 07, 2006

Amber's visit in a nutshell

in an effort to be less out of touch I give you this new blog entry... It hasn't even been a FULL week since the last so I reckon I am doing well.

There is not much to write about except, of course the fact that Amber is here! w00t!
We had a bit of a ... umm... fiasco?... well maybe just an issue with picking her up from the airport, but after spending a half an hour at the airport looking for her, then driving home, driving back to the airport, going to the wrong terminal, then the correct one, I finally found her and we headed back to my place. (in the process of it all there were many shitty drivers on the roads ... :-P some people should just NOT be allowed to drive). We didn't do much that night, in fact I think we just decided to go to bed after a chat ... we reckon... we don't really know...

Since Friday I have gotten Amber drunk with my friends (so fun. 'hmph' - says Amber) Of course we had heaps of fun though. My friends seem to have something against Jersey though... not quite sure what...but Amber was able to defend herself just fine. After an interesting night of beers, shots, random happenings, celebrating Josh's freedom, and having Amber told that she had an 'aussie' accent (so not true) , i sobered up and came home. The fun continued with a bit of time spent online, of which I had my first chat with Shannon's brother Troy...well it was mostly me typing for Amber who had issues with the keys. :-) She maintains that it was mostly due to the fact that she was kneeling on the floor, but I did offer her a chair... so enough said. Anyway I left her to the computer before bed and she ended up signing herself off on accident... whatever, we went to bed.

Sunday... After some yummy scrambled eggs Amber headed to the softball fields with my brother and I to watch us play a game with the friends from the night before. Although Amber did not play and instead read and watched, I think she also spent most of the time figuring out what it was that she might have said or done the night before. That and figuring out who everyone was while sober :-) (by the way she is being SUCH a good sport with this blog as she sits and watches me type it... cuz she has nothing better to do with her time... because I am not a good host and have no idea what to do with her, although she says I am and that she's had fun... i dunno.. she could be lying, but I doubt it :-) )

We came back to watch Pride and Prejudice (which she had never seen! what an outrage! ok so I'm obsessed...and maybe she's not like me :-) ) After dinner with the fam, which gave Amber the ability to really see what I am like and how my family functions (she now has one up on me... probably realizes why I am the way that I am... many many bad jokes ... i think she survived.) Natalie and Jeff came over later to meet Amber and to watch a movie. It was nice to see Jeff again because he has been in FL forever. Hopefully Amber did not get too sick of our 'gossip' talk. We watched Mirrormask, chatted awhile longer, then split... we were all pretty tired. So tired that I have a sandal missing because I am quite sure that Natalie ended up putting on one of her sandals and one of mine. I just noticed today when I had only one brown sandal and a mysterious blue one...hmmm I don't know if she has realized it yet...

Today, well today was a trip to the Mall of America. w00t! It was the one thing that Amber mentioned she wanted to see and really it's one of our only claims to fame here in Minnesota. So Natalie joined us and we drove out to it. We didn't spend much time there because none of us had much of a shopping agenda. Let's face it...we're all unemployed... (ok well Amber is only partially unemployed... ok so we all have jobs...we're just not working them yet! sounds ridiculous huh?!) we then tried for the Minneapolis Institute of Arts... Oops... me being really stupid forgot that the museum is closed on Mondays...this I also mentioned to Amber on Saturday after I checked the times that it was open. Yeah.. I'm on top of things. OH well... so we went to a bakery in Uptown and had some food and drinks and then made our way home. Amber and I watched tv, got sick of real tv and put in Clone High again to pass the time. We went out to dinner with out my family and had a nice time chatting. One of my favorite parts... Amber realizing why all the stuff on the walls was Chicago-related. The name of the restaurant is "Old Chicago" Heh. And now I am boring her with my boring life and typing of this blog. Who knows how we will fill the time tonight, probably hanging out again...we're both too god damn indecisive... but we like eachother so hanging out has been just fine. I think that is all. She leaves tomorrow afternoon for Jersey again and then I have two and a half days to figure out what to do with Shannon when he gets here. :-P I'll try harder to figure some things out... it would be terrible for me to bore a foreigner...
Yes that is all...

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

out of touch

wow.
almost a month and I haven't written. Not like it matters. I mean I haven't even gotten the traditional "update your blog Em!" from Melissa.

Anyway...things are well and needless to say I have been out of touch for awile. I just got busy i guess and lazy with the blog. I finally started to get interviews which have taken up my time and energy a great deal. I also made plans to visit Krista in Oregon and just got back today( i might write more about that later, but easily put...it was AWESOME! I missed her a great deal!) After getting back I went straight to a frisbee game and played in the rain. My spirits rose even more by seeing frisbee friends I hadn't seen in awhile! I was all smiles! and still am but am very very tired. There is much I can think of to write about but the fact that I am ill prepared for an interview tomorrow is nagging at me, and well this enormous lack of functioning is starting to wear me down...thus i make the trip to bed. More to come i suppose if anyone is still reading

Saturday, July 08, 2006

i don't see why anyone does drugs

As I watched the first two episodes of 'Grey's Anatomy' thursday night I caught a great quote. If you've seen the show you would know that it's about a bunch of surgeon interns in their first year. One of them gets the chance to be in on a surgery. Later she tellls her boss how amazing it was to be in the surgery room and says that it was 'such a high. I don't see why anyone does drugs'(well it was something to that effect) Anyway I thought about this a little bit longer and well, i'm not going to school to become a surgeon or anything but it's a good though. My week has been so great, and such a good high with out the drugs that I kind of started thinking like that character from Grey's Anatomy was.

The week has consisted of so much good stuff. Minus no job it's been great. I would detail every single thing but that would take forever. The fourth was great, getting to see family and later friends. the weekend before I got to see Davina. After the fourth I just got to see a lot of Natalie and we had a great time hanging out and watching movies mostly. I spent the days looking for jobs and sitting in the pool! How can that not be good?! :-) I kept getting to see people I hadn't seen in a long time and got to catch up with them, as much as I hated talking about what I am doing with my life now, it was fun hearing what everyone is up to. Then I had Thursday and Friday to look forward to. Natalie and I invited heaps of people to go out to Figlio's on Thursday, which is where we have met up with my sister and her friends a few times this summer. It was great! It was such a random group of friends but they all got along real well!!!!! this is probably what gave me the best high! I was so happy to reconnect with old friends, and to meet some new people and to just see so many people coming out to a bar with me and Nat! Life was good! We had old high school friends, friends from college, our friend Kyle who we met in Youth in Government, and a couple friends that helped out with drumline. It was great! Kim was my only Luther friend but she ended up running into other Luther people that I kind of knew. So there was just this really random group of people and it was good. We went home that night feeling so awesome! Natalie and I gabbed about it on the way home and the next day....which was friday of course! The Basilica Block Party! I went last year and it was great, and soooo good again this year. I love the Hopefuls, and all the bands seemed really awesome. There were SO many people there to see Guster. I only do so well with large crowds so I didn't stay to watch them, just listened from afar after I watched Mike Doughty! oh so fun! It was a beautiful night full of good people, food, and music. Who could ask for more?!

I just have this great feeling all over from such fun times! I don't know how else to explain it. I am also happy that I got an email from Britta ( I miss her a lot), a message from Shannon (so excited to see him in about a month) and learned that Greg Graffin of Bad Religion has a solo album! it's very pretty... i like him (check it out... www.myspace.com/greggraffin -- if that doesn't work sorry... but it's the thought that counts)

so yeah... just good feelings all around. I think I also had a dream and friends Beth and LJ were in it. I miss them a whole lot too! just good feelings. Tonight... a party at Rob's with another great group of friends! can't wait!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

high school reunion #3

so tonight was probably about the third time that I have gone to a gathering that is close to a high school reunion. Mind you I have not found these events to be disappointing, uncomfortable or completely stupid...but they have been a bit weird. It started with Zoe's wedding where we got some Fridley gossip, then Katie and Ben's wedding, which really wasn't that weird because the people we were with I usually see. Tonight...4th of July... well we went to Mark's new place and hung out, then did fireworks. I got to see a group of people I hadn't seen in quite awhile. On top of that Mark is rooming with Nick and Dustin of whom I was never friends with in high school, but it was just more fridley people. Plus their friends were around, most of whom I recognized. It was all kind of a modge-podge of people. Including my boyfriend from high school who I thought I hadn't seen since freshman year of college, but really not since about sophomore year. Seeing him again made me realize why I liked him. He really is a nice guy. But then I think deeper and realize that we would differ on a lot of things. So not only was the ex-boy there, but I ran into this girl that I hadn't seen since the summer before senior year of high school. I met her at this big gathering called Girls State! It was Katie. She was so cool and we were buds at Girls state but we lost contact pretty quickly afterwards. It was so weird. She asked if I had been to Girls state and i looked at her and realized who she was. So weird! She's friends with Nick (a fridley guy, and also one of Mark's room mates). yeah, wow...it was random but cool. She, for one...is no longer a red head, she's very blonde now. She's still really nice though. So it was good to see her, but the only word I can really use to describe seeing her is 'random'.

Overall it was fun to hang out with that group of people, and I'm sure we will hang out again, but not constantly. I enjoy people...It's interesting to hear what they were all up to, but it was SO annoying to have to answer the question of "what are you doing now?" and having no real good answer while Natalie was by my side loving telling everyone about her soon to be job at Mayo. It's cute how excited she gets about Micro-bio stuff :-) and she gets REALLY excited! ;-)

the day was good overall, a good fourth. Spending time up at my grandparents proved to be enjoyable, but wow did i eat WAY too much food today! :-P Now I have a stomach ache and want to get to sleep. sigh... such a good day.

Monday, July 03, 2006

one year

so this isn't going to be long and drawn out, but it's something I just felt I needed to post.

Mark it. It has now been one year since I left Australia. I left the country on July 3rd last year and made it home very early on July 4th (like 12 or 1am). It was a lot of traveling, a very stressful time in the Chicago airport, but i made it home and was even awake for grandma's fourth of july party the next day.

I'm not sure how much I really want to say on the subject, it's more of a reflection time for me and i don't know how to explain the feelings I have for Australia and its people a year later. What is kind of funny today though is that I was going through my laptop carrying case so that my sister could use it and I found $40! Nice! That's what happens when mom and dad tell you to not keep all your money in one place while traveling:-) I'm pretty sure I remember getting to Australia and after a couple days or weeks felt as though I was missing some money... well think i found it!

what else I feel i need to say is that I loved it, and I miss it... but I am so excited to see friends from that trip this summer. Hopefully Bec and Amber will make it out here, and well about a month or so from now Shannon should be in the states. It will be so nice to see their faces!